Its fake-dont take it personly

If there;s the two of us, and her in the middle,
I guess it's a mystery why we can't solve the riddle.
If I try to push her away,
she would make me trust her and say:
I would never lie to you, just tell me what he said.
It made me feel like if i didn't tell her I'd turn out to be dead.
I ran somewhere else but hiding wouldn't do,
Is it so hard to express how i feel about you?
In the end, I didn't tell her but we got into a fight,
and no ray of sunshine appeared trough out the night.
I hate saying this but, the beginning is only the end,
Pretending is for kids, but unfortunately i have to fake being your friend.